Its 12 december, just another ordinary day.
Tomorrow is monday, a day which i can look forward to.
What can i do today? I have no idea too.
For the past 2 nights, it have been raining.
Middle of the night when people are sleeping.
Lightening flashing, thunder roaring.
I cant help but hug my teddy and curl in the blanket.
i hate raining, because somehow it will changes my mood
when it rains and i am alone, i will automatic feel sad.
when its very sunny, i feel very cheerful and happy.
i think i am weird. dont you think so ?
I want to sleep badly yesterday but i just couldnt fall asleep.
I didnt know why. maybe is because of the rain?
So i went to listen to songs and stare at the ceiling.
I was only sleepy at 3am.
But my stupid left eye start to itch, disturb me.
who cares, i still slept.
Nowadays, my dad just went swimming alone without asking me if i want to go.
I guess he just gave up asking since i always say no.
it feel like years since i went.
I miss swimming so much. i miss learning too.
the usual sunday, the usual place, the usual coach and friends.
i am starting to get fair-er and fair-er.
i dont know why but i dont quite like it.
i feel like getting a sunburned. its been ages since i get one.
i dont know why i am posting all this.
guess i am just too bored(?)
haixz a zillion. ~
I often wonder why is my life so boring :(
different people have different kind of life.
i dont like busy life neither do i like boring life.
my life need some entertainment.
I only have a laptop, camera and a handphone.
Gameboy which i dont play much.
Playstation 1 which i dont play too.
Tv which i used to love alot.
i can watch the whole day without feeling bored.
now, i dont even feel like watching.
Cause there is no nice show to watch.
Now i am like facebook, twitter, bloghop, youtube only ?
boringgggggggggggggggggggggg!
i wonder wonder wonder.
why am i a girl?
why am i born in this world?
what is the purpose of life?
why did i choose to studied at wgps?
why didnt i achieve my target grades?
why didnt i take care of my eyes?
why i am still stuck at this height?
was i ever a happy girl in the past?
One thing for sure i can say.
I feel happy in secondary school life.
So much more compared to primary school
Primary school was great until primary 4.
i was a happy girl till then.
Everything start to change.
Even till now, i dont understand why.
i never knew why. why is it me?
why why why, i dont know the answer.
Do you know? i want to know why.
but i was lucky to find her.
i guess, without her, my life wont be any better.
without her, i will be suffering so much.
at least she change my life in primary 5 to 6.
She make me happier.
She encourages me.
She is my true great friend.
Without her, i wont be here.
i remember life are so bad for me.
i cry every single night without fail,
That was the only way.
i cried myself to sleep.
i slash my wrist again and again.
i didnt stop even after i get caught by teacher.
i feel betrayed. how can they do this to me.
all their fault for ruining my primary school life.
because of them, my grades drop.
life was such a darkness.
i nearly join gang. she saved me.
i guess, nobody can ever feel how i felt.
maybe i wasnt the worse case. just maybe
she is the one who wake me up from my thinking.
i stop slashing my wrist.
i stop crying every night.
but because of me, she get bullied too.
because of me, she slashed her wrist.
and because of me she have to go for counselling.
all my fault. i am really sorry
She didnt blame me.
she didnt gave up on me.
with her, i stand up even after falling.
we both have the same dream school.
but do you know what is the sad thing?
we didnt went to the same school.
although we get the same grades.
and we start to fade.
i dont know why. i dislike it.
but life still have to go on.
Looking back, i am really glad i survived through that.
Maybe is fate. good things always have to come to an end.
but 2 years was just too short for us.
We get so close like sisters then we have to be separated.
i miss you :(
we haven been smsing each other for 123456789 years.
its so long you know. :(
but nevertheless, thankyou for being there for me.
The memories i had from p4 to p5 was so bad.
i have forget everything completely already.
i hope this incident will just disappear.
i am happy, very glad, things are great now.
i met awesome people, who change my life.
i have a list, a long list of friends i have to thanks.
Perhaps, you can say, all my friends in facebook except some.
iyiyi~ i just shared something i didnt want to disclosed.
Enough of my crapping le.
Sorry, i wasted so much of your time.
Forgive me :)
I want to go swimming!
Jio me out for swimming leh :)
I go eat lunch already.
I will start my homework not today but tuesday :D
Muahahah :P Sayonara.
I will end off with a video and a 4th letter for him.
Enjoy ! :)

Dear,
so far enjoying for the past few days?
Haha, dumb question :D
Meowmeow~
别忘了想我
哈哈，不用啦。
Just kidding only.
Have funnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!
我想你 :D